Musings of the reformed cynic

Je m’appelle Maria Joan Campomanes Maranan.

a mystery to those who don’t know me
an enlightenment to those who are close to me
an organized chaos
highly perceptive
never predictable
almost always reliable

the life i live is the life i chose
many can hardly comprehend that
i only do with what i was given
i make the most of what i have

i like the company of friends
like you never run out of things to talk about
you make time for them
you relate to them

I’ve made a lot of sacrifices lately
wondering what the future may bring is scary
i don’t want to disappoint anymore
but i can’t get hold of my future as much as i would want to
things can’t always go your way
but you can make up for it

do you understand my limitations??
can you make up for what i cannot give??
can you keep up with my erratic lifestyle??

i feel..
chaotic peace
sorrowful joy
fearful courage
malevolent altruism
indifferent compassion
miserable luxury
unpropitious luck
unfaithful loyalty
transient persistence
hesitating determination
doubting enthusiastic
tearful laughter
hating love

and then the most unexpected thing happened..
I fell in love.